This morning, waiting for the school bus:
Baby 4: I wish Baby 10 was here. Do you wish Baby 10 was here?
Me: Well, I miss her, but I'm happy for her that's she's back with her family.
Baby 4: I wish she didn't go back so we didn't have to say 'Goodbye'. I've had to say goodby to a lot of people
Then he listed all the people he doesn't live with anymore
It was a lengthy list
My heart broke for this tiny baby who carries a big load everyday. Usually he does it so well that I forget, but right then he was weary. The story that gave him a family also took so much away. Today it was more lonely than lovely. It's a normal Mama response to try to be the fixer, but all I could really do was hug him while he felt all his feelings.
Then he picked up his big load and went to school.